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Happiness
music and lyrics by Misha Lyuve

Happiness, what is my happiness?
I was looking for happiness with persistent aggressiveness
I was trying to find it in outrageous experiences
I was chasing it closely like madman who fights his insanity
But instead I could feel only tired and cynical, tired and cynical

My happiness waited inside of me quietly
It whispered please look in yourself to find me
But I made so much mess around me
That I couldn’t see things clear and obvious, clear and obvious

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Where are you, my love where are you?
I was looking for love with tremendous committed intensity
I explored people’s faces on trains not to miss my love anywhere
I moved countries to find it, traveled exotic vicinities
But my heart only shrunk from sadness and loneliness, sadness and loneliness

So many times love look at me kindly
With its warm eyes it shared its beautiful tenderness
So fast I ran I couldn’t even notice it
And if I did, I thought better love is in some other place - in some other place?

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Who am I? Who am I?
I was looking for purpose of living in books philosophical
I was trying to find the answer to whether life’s meaningless
I was losing myself in purposeless blames and arguments
But today I can say who I am in words simple and genuine, simple and genuine

I am a man who’s in love with life ardently
I want to be honest loving and generous
And follow dreams bright like stars and sometimes unreachable
And to have you my friends, my loved ones around me, around me, around me….

Alive
lyrics and music by misha lyuve

I will let you in on a secret
And I hope that you can keep it
Since the end of world soon nears
I'll confess you all my fears

I am scared of my bosses,
Angry people, blood and corpses
Needles, mood swings and depression,
Losing vision, limbs and passion

But I am not afraid to die
You can take me if you like
All my bags are packed and light
I am ready for the ride

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I am terrified of failure
My irrational behavior
Letting my close people go
And ending up in life alone

I am horrified of wrinkles
Aging, helplessness and illness
That I'll grow old and bitter
And will need a babysitter

But I am not afraid to die
You can take me for the ride
If you're putting me to rest
Make it easy, smooth and fast

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And the other thing I fear
That my love will disappear
And like everybody else
I'll be settling for less

That I will run out of hope,
That I won't know how to stop.
That I'll get tired and depressed,
And that this song could be my last

And I am not afraid to die
But I don't think it's yet my time
So let me play and sing and rhyme
And be afraid and be alive

Love Song
lyrics and music by misha lyuve

Gods were caught a bit of guard
By a directive from above
To come up with a week-long plan
To create the Earth and Man

They locked themselves in a conference room
Argued till they were in fume
And right before they went berserk
They agreed to start the work

Love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
Elevating, liberating
Love’s like mighty fierce hurricane
If you made some major plans
Love will change them in a glance
Love is awesome, love is precious, love is gay

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Gods aspired for success
But ended up with a hefty mess
Day and night they worked so hard
But nothing stuck, all fell apart

They went back to the drawing board
And they prayed, please help us Lord
Lord struck lightening and he asked
Are you giving it your best?

Love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
Penetrating, ovulating,
Love will shine on your with million rays
Love will shower you with gifts
It could even bring you twins
Love is awesome, love is precious, love is gay

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Gods brought a cauldron to the room
Started mixing the magic brew
Each of them held in his hand
The best thing he had to add

And they called this potion love
And Lord smiled from above
And in seven days as planned
Here we are, the Earth and Man

Love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
Celebrating, exhilarating
Here we are on such a special day
Love will put you to the test
And demand your very best
Love is awesome, love is previous, love is gay

Close people
lyrics and music by misha lyuve

Some things that mind can’t explain
Can be profound though very simple
And within human interactions
Such is a story of close people

Look at the lake and mountain nearby
They are following different fates
They are made of distinct fabrics
Nevertheless they are soul mates

Close people can look in opposite ways
But their eyes meet
Close people can follow different roads
But their paths cross
Close people hear with their hearts
Talk without words
No need for hello or good-bye
Close people, like you and I

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The world’s bizarre, just watch the news
Or look inside your own backyard
We are so easy to start a war
We are so fast to close our heart

And there are days when I can be
Both prince charming and ugly cripple
And what allows me to stay sane
Is the proximity of close people

Close people can look in opposite ways
But their eyes meet
Close people can follow different roads
But their paths cross
Close people hear with their hearts
Talk without words
No need for hello or good-bye
Close people, like you and I

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Our identity and beliefs
Keep us locked tightly in the cage
But close people quickly transcend
Politics, race and blood and age

But thanks for blood or otherwise
Would be so easy to miss each other
You’re my close person for life
You’re my friend, you’re my brother

Close people can look in opposite ways
But their eyes meet
Close people can follow different roads
But their paths cross
Close people hear with their hearts
Talk without words
No need for hello or good-bye
Close people, like you and I

Some place
lyrics and music by misha lyuve

I am stuck in the cage
With my fear and rage
And I slowly age and fade
I don’t know anymore
If this cage has a door
And I simply ignore this pain

Should I’d rather be dead?
They say it’s all in your head
Cut it open instead and see
Where is freedom of choice?
Where is truth of my voice?
Where are promised joys of my days?
Of my days, of my days

Some place not that far away
Children singing a very happy song
Flowers blooming in the streets
And I will love you forever

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In my heart deep black hole
‘s taking over control
I break down and bowl for myself
I crave pity and sweets
I am trashed to the bits
No room for retreats anymore

I will cease to resist
I am no longer pissed
I will give you my wrist and blood
I’ll denounce my kin
I will blemish my skin
I will cut off my limb if you ask
If you ask, if you ask

Some place not that far away
Children singing a very happy song
Flowers blooming in the streets
And I will love you forever

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I will no longer hide
I will simply abide
I am soft as a bride for you
Irreversible bond
With your magical wand
Does whatever you want with me

Mold me whichever way
I’ll be soft as a clay
I’ll try hard, I will pray even more
And your job’s culmination -
I’m pure perfection
The crown of creation yours
Only yours, only yours

Some place not that far away
Children singing a very happy song
Flowers blooming in the streets
And I will love you forever

i am
lyrics and music by misha lyuve

I am a dreamer
I am a madman
I am a hero
I will come from the sky
And bring light to your treacherous journey

Take it or leave it
Grow it or kill it
Drink it or spill it
But you’d better know
That I won’t tolerate your living in darkness

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I am a coward
I am a liar
I am an asshole
I live like the world owes me million bucks
And is here to please me

Take it or leave it
Grow it or kill it
Drink it or spill it
But you’d better forgive it
‘Cause you can’t just pick
Parts of me to your liking

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I am a lover
I am a poet
I am an artist
And my tireless passion
Like water carves rocks into castles

Take it or leave it
Grow it or kill it
Drink it or spill it
But you’d better believe it
I’ll find a pathway to my masterpieces

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I am an angel
Yet I’m no angel
I’m a human
I can fly so high
But my heart feels so much pain and sorrow

Take it or leave it
Grow it or kill it
Drink it or spill it
But you’d better admit it
That you and I are no different

Fragile humanity
lyrics and music by misha lyuve

My fragile humanity with glimpses of hope
Can move swiftly forward but only to stop
It makes decisions, it changes its mind
It always feels a little behind
A little left out and a little bit fried
And definitely not at all satisfied

So I’m praying to oceans that flow with no bounds
And I’m praying to mountains that are higher than clouds
I’m praying to the moon to the sun to the stars
I’m singing and praying with my guitar

Rid me of fear and give me vision
Rid me of fear and give me vision
Rid me of fear and give me vision
Rid me of fear and give me vision

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My fragile humanity with glimpses of hope
Performs in its dramas and listens to pop
It measures its grieves from their downs to rises
And slowly then those grieves analyses
And in between tears, downs and motions
It contemplates exit strategy options

So I’m praying to Jesus or Allah in glory
Or anyone else who would hear my story
Answer my prayers, oh powerful kings,
Give me the two of my favorite things

Rid me of fear and give me vision
Rid me of fear and give me vision
Rid me of fear and give me vision
Rid me of fear and give me vision

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My fragile humanity with glimpses of hope
Pleases its bosses and is doing its job
It also keeps a stack of dreams for a thrill
Full of noble intentions as well as good will
And next to the dreams there is a bigger collection
Of reasons, excuses and justifications

So I sit cross-legged in divine meditation
Sending to angels my aspirations
I’m working so hard, it’s hurting third eye
But that’s ok, I’ll give it a try

Just rid me of fear and give me vision
Rid me of fear and give me vision
Rid me of fear and give me vision
Rid me of fear and give me vision

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My fragile humanity with glimpses of hope
Wants only to eat, sleep, shit, fuck and shop
And as glimpses of hope do sometimes arise
They surely sink into grim and demise
And tired of chasing the demons inside
My tears roll down as my life goes by

So I’m sitting and waiting,
And praying and crying
I’m thinking and singing,
And writing and trying
And I’m trying again as never before
Give me, god damn it, what I’m asking for

Rid me of fear and give me vision
Rid me of fear and give me vision
Rid me of fear and give me vision
Rid me of fear and give me vision

Delilaigio
lyrics and music by misha lyuve

I am diving into the army of corpses in suits
Chocked up by buttoned up shirts, suffocated by ties
They sniff me suspiciously like a homeless dog
Though I rush toward the train just like them.
Stepping on others’ feet without excuse
Cursing them angrily behind their back
Pushing them hastily with my elbows aside
But once on the train I feel a little lost
As they squeak of wheels whispers in the stubborn voice
What the fuck are you doing? Who the fuck are you?

Delilaigio ze vi de li wu
Delilaigio ke li u ri la
Le le le la

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So my consciousness's craving desperate rest
And my eyes are shutting down this gruesome world
And my head is reaching out the pillow’s bliss
But finds nails and thorns of my endless thoughts
And this pain reminds me, I’m still alive
And this pain reminds me there still might be hope
And it take me in the vortex of the shallow dreams
Where the choir of angel-faced eager youth
Is reciting in the background vigorously
What the fuck are you doing? Who the fuck are you?

Delilaigio ze vi de li wu
Delilaigio ke li u ri la
Le le le la

I am bright and awake and I clearly see
The line on the sand that marks sanity land
And it suddenly breaks, and I don’t understand
Which side I am on, please somebody help.
I see visions of angels and humans like trees
Growing out of the ground with their heads in the Earth
And irrational verses pump to my head
And bizarre songs knock inside – let us out
And a cripple that looks exactly like me
But with a dead face, empty eyes and rotten teeth
Yells like crazy splashing his spit over me
What the fuck are you doing? Who the fuck are you?
Delilaigio ze vi de li wu
Delilaigio ke li u ri la
Le le le la

This life is mine
lyrics and music by misha lyuve

I am a regular guy
I don't know how to fly
And the harder I try
The further's the sky

And I can't no more cry
And I won't no more sigh
And I do not deny
That my life is a lie

I am praying to fly
I am saying goodbye
For new to arrive
The old has to die

I am living this life
This is my life
This life is mine
I am living this life
This is my life
This life is mine

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I tried to stay still,
To pretend not to feel
To be happy and chill,
And to get on a pill

But the wound wouldn't heal,
The void wouldn't fill
There was no deal,
Just a road uphill

There is no hope to steal,
There are layers to peel
And collect all my will
And this pain to seal

I am living this life
This is my life
This life is mine
I am living this life
This is my life
This life is mine

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This pain will pass.
Though not simply or fast
It will too become past
Not the first not the last

And after some rest
I will get to my best
there are traces of zest
That still live in my chest

Possibility's vast
And the new wings I'll cast
For whatever the quest
Is taking me next

I am living this life
This is my life
This life is mine
I am living this life
This is my life
This life is mine

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I am a regular guy
I don't know how to fly
And the harder I try
The further's the sky

I am praying to fly
I am saying goodbye
For the new to arrive
The old has to die

Talk to me
lyrics by misha lyuve
music by misha lyuve and alexander alabin

The world if full of music, color and rhyme
And not to feel them, I say, is a crime
And if you're tired, or bored, or can’t see
Just talk to me, just talk to me, just talk to me

If when you hold a brush, a pencil or pen
It feels like someone else is moving your hand
And only when you paint, you’re free
Just talk to me, just talk to me, just talk to me

If you wake with a song in your soul,
But are afraid to sing to us all
Because sometimes you go off key
Just talk to me, just talk to me, just talk to me

If you’re a bully who is strong, mean and tough
In secret’s growing a rose in his heart,
And you’re torn about how to be
Just talk to me, just talk to me, just talk to me

And if you’re lost or lonely or sad
And wouldn’t tell your mom and dad
That you’re about to give up or to flee
Just talk to me, just talk to me, just talk to me

And if it’s raining non-stop a long time
I will take our all bright colors of mine
And we will paint the world A to Z
Just talk to me, just talk to me, just talk to me

If sun is shining and the sky’s happy blue
Please call your friends who are loyal and true
We’ll sing and dance like no one can see
Just talk to me, just talk to me, just talk to me

The world if full of music, color and rhyme
And not to feel them, I say, is a crime
And if you're tired, or bored, or can’t see
Just talk to me, just talk to me, just talk to me

Inexpressible
lyrics by osip mandel'stam
music by misha lyuve

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